Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I SOOOO hate feeling useless!!!

This has been me for the last two weeks. But worse.

I started writing a whole long story about my medical history and how exactly I came to my current status, but I figured no one really wanted to read all that. So long story short, I've had low back issues for years and had it under control with monthly maintenance with my chiropractor. Things were good, unless I did something stupid or had some kind of accident, like now.

And this one has been the worst ever. I have never ever been in this much pain...and I've given birth to two babies. It's been completely debilitating. Constant pain, zero relief. I even had to have my husband help me get my underwear on.

The pain was not this bad the whole of the last two just got bad a few days ago. But I've been taking it super easy the last two weeks, which means the laundry hasn't been done, and the house kinda resembles a pig sty. I did what I could, but when I took a turn for the worst, I couldn't do anything at all. Luckily hubby can take time off from work, paid, because of the Family Medical Leave Act. So he's been here to take care of the kids and do some housework and such. While I lay here completely useless.

I can't tell you how absolutely awful it feels to lay here and not be able to help with anything. I'm not one to ask for anything, ever. If I want something, I get up and get it. But the last two days, I couldn't even get up to go to the bathroom without asking hubby to help me get off the couch. I know he doesn't mind and I actually think he's taking some pride in all this...helping me. He hasn't complained once.

I am better now though. Went to my primary physician because I just didn't think my chiropractor was helping me in this situation. My doctor gave me a prescription for some steroids, and I can honestly say, with only one dose, I am already feeling a lot better. When I woke up this morning, I was actually laying there feeling zero pain. Haven't felt pain-free in days. I'm not one to right away run for pain meds and I'm glad she didn't actually give me any pain pills. She did give me a muscle relaxer to use at night, but it didn't actually do anything for me.

So, I'm happy to report I am on my way to feeling useful again! Have you ever been in a situation where you felt useless???


  1. Oh my I am soo sorryt to hear that. What a great husband you had. During our first year of marriage I had to have surgery for endometriosis, then I had kidney stones, then I developed sciatica. I spent a lot of time feeling useless but husband was a real sweet heart.

    I am soo happy to hear that you are feeling better!!

  2. Yes, I hate it when my friends are going through a hard time and I can't really help them, or even give them advice because of the situation. :( I really hope you keep feeling better and better though :D

  3. Oh, lower back pain sucks! And it takes forever (it seems) to heal. Glad your doc gave you something that helped and I hope you feel better quickly.

  4. Ouch!! I'm sorry to hear about this! Being flat on your back relying on others totally stinks!! I'm so glad you went to the doctor and he was able to give you something to help. Steroids can be great stuff. I took them for about 6 weeks for a hurt foot I couldn't put weight on.

    Don't overdo it now that you're feeling better! Let the drugs work to get the swelling down and let it all heal, or you'll be right back where you are!

  5. I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. Back pain is the worst. It's wonderful that your husband is so helpful - keep accepting the help and heal :)