Wednesday, June 29, 2011

My light bulb moments

I think most people have moments in their life where, like a light bulb, you suddenly see the light. Something wakes you up, snaps you out of whatever you were in.

I've had two light bulb moments that I can recall right now. I'm sure there've been more, but these two stick out, especially the first one.

When I was in college for Floriculture Merchandising, I knew I never wanted to run my own flower shop like my courses were preparing me for. But I did want to run my own business. I'd always had the plan to run a business that only specialized in wedding design. I wasn't real fond of the rest of the stuff that came along with being a floral designer: funerals, everyday birthdays and such. So after a few years working in a  flower shop as a designer, I did it. I went out on my own and I had built quite a reputation with solid referrals. It worked well for a while...until my daughter got older and I wasn't able to do the work during the day like I'd planned all along. And I started writing fiction...seriously with the intent of being published. My light bulb moment came one night around 10 pm when I was working in my design room with several hours of work yet to do. I was completely exhausted. And then my light bulb illuminated. Other nights I sat at my computer writing til 1-2 a.m. and had to force myself into bed cause I knew my daughter would be up in only 6-7 hours.

I realized I did not love my work anymore. And I needed to do something about it.

Light bulb moment number two came when my son was an infant. I apologize now if this is all too much information. I had breastfed my daughter exclusively to 6 months, then started supplementing with formula. At nine months, she gave it up completely. But there had never been a shortage of breast milk. My son, on the other hand, maybe he just ate too much, or maybe my body had changed, but the supply just was not there. I kept trying though, as excruciatingly painful as it was. Around his two month bday, my light bulb went off. My son was crying and I picked him up...but to hold him against my chest to comfort him, it hurt sooooooooooooooooo bad. I had to hand him off to my husband. That was it.....I stopped nursing him. It was just not worth it to keep doing it when I was in so much pain I couldn't even hold my baby. (And FYI, I did try to keep pumping but the supply had just diminished too much.)

So....have you had any light bulb moments??? What did you do about them?? Were you happier after??


  1. These were fantastic light bulb moments! I think it's important to act on them when you have them!!!

    I had one at 23. I was working several dead end jobs with no ending in sight. I had yet to decide what I wanted my major to be and college had been put off the table until I could try things. I tried EMT, counseling, nursing, interior design, architecture. None of it satisfied me. It wasn't until I saw Julie & Julia that I had that light bulb moment. I realized I could be ANY OF THOSE THINGS while writing. For a few months I'd get to just experience those moments and move on. I haven't regretted it since!

  2. I think I've had two very important ones myself: the one that got me into social worker school full time, and the one that started me on my writing path.

    Both were well worth the sacrifices, though I didn't always think that while going to school.

    Thanks for sharing your own lightbulb moments.


  3. I had a light bulb moment just this morning. I've been forcing myself to eat bananas because they are quick, portable, and healthy. But I really can't stand them - both the texture and taste make me gag. So I stopped! If I never eat another banana again, that's fine with me. I'll just have to find another fruit. LOL!